wow tumblr flagging pics i posted wen i was struggling with an esting disorder and showed me all of them and i don’t think i’ve ever hated myself more i have so many feelings that are flooding back…feelings of self hate and wanting to not be here…..the love i still have for him and how every day i feel like i’m going to lose it because i miss him more and more ugh why is my life this way why do i suck why am i even here

also recently (like a month ago lol) it was my tumblr anniversary and it realized i made it to complain about my feelings because of a boy and eight years later i still (from time to time) till complain about the same guy ha ha ha feelings never go away and i feel pathetic 

i’m losing my mind over feelings and emotions and confusion what else i new ha ha ha sigh